Amanda Hefner (my college roomate, 12 weeks, 1st baby)
Anne Lynette Gallas (my friend and wife of my homebuilder, 10 weeks?, 3rd baby)
Cathi Heare (my good friend and pastors wife, 12 weeks, 4th baby)
Rachel Toalson (my friend and worship extraordinare, 14 weeks, 2nd baby)
Courtney Garrison (my good friend, 14 weeks?, 2nd baby)
Eve Nelson (my college friend, 20 weeks, 3rd baby)
Jamie King (my good friend, 28 weeks, 3rd baby)
Christi Hinkebein (my good friend and youth pastors wife, 28 weeks, 1st baby)
So this whole baby thing is amazing! I can't wait to meet them all. But at the same time, it really makes me think about what Ben and I are waiting for.
When we first got married we said we would wait five years before having babies, well we were married 5 years in September and still no baby in sight. We thought about trying before Israel/Turkey, but decided against that. We thought about trying when we got home. But, now I am worried about timing. It would be really tough to have a baby in the middle of the semester. I am worried about not having enough money or time or having no idea what to do with a little one. I am worried about having no biological family around us (we do have a huge church family). I am worried that I will want to stay at home when we have a baby and won't be able to. I am worried that I won't finish school if we have a baby and all of this time and energy will go to waste. I am worried that maybe something is wrong with me for being so worried that I can't even begin to think about trying. I am worried and frankly, it doesn't make any sense!! G-d is in control and it is His will that will be done. I just pray that G-d will give Ben and I clarity about this whole baby thing. I pray his timing will be apparent to us and we will be obedient to his call.
6 comments:
Having children is definitely a God thing even if you are a control freak like me . . . I will pray that God will give you clarification in the way only He can.
courtney is pregnant!!!!!?????????????????????
oh, my sweet friend! Do not worry for he says," I know the plans I have for you. TO give you a hope and future." Jer 29:11
I was the same way when trying for Zane and after a year went by without a baby I began to stress, cry, worry and doubt, but HE knew the time and it was perfect. After looking back, I see why a child would not have been good during the time I wanted. I will be praying for you and Ben. I love you guys!
Ahhh. One of the true challenges of the modern world, because you have to DECIDE to try for a baby, instead of just letting it happen. And it is, indeed, a monumental decision.
I hope that you will just quit worrying...there is never enough money, or time, and babies and children certainly don't come with a user's manual. But you and Ben will be fantastic parents, a baby at any time is a true gift from God. And somehow, once a baby appears, the time seems right, after all.
And besides, I am the world's greatest Grandma and you will have lots of help (and, of course, advice).
I am the other world's greatest grandmom in your family. Sweet daughter, do not worry. No wait is too long or too short. The timing is perfect. It took so long for your brother and you to come to my life, and the timing was indeed perfect. Besides, I can always move in with you guys when the baby arrives if you are worried about biological connections close by!!!! Or at least live close.
You have a gift coming when God so choses.
And you can still go to school with a baby---I went with two.
Brooke....everything will fall in to place! It's wonderful, and sooooooo much fun!
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